Seledri Boy

Heart

a wounded heart will never be same
some said that time will always heals the pain
but a scar will remain

every heart has a key
find it and take a good care of it
once you loose it
it will be hard to find another

Reflux

We went to the doctor last saturday and rafan only gain 200 gr weight since last month . He looks more skinny and no more 'supitem' . We suspect maybe he had GER (gastroesophageal reflux) which is a common things for baby/infants. Doctor gave him zantrac but then i found out that zantrac is not recommended for babies so i decided to stop giving him zantrac. Due to his allergic, we can't give him baby food so until now rafan only drink breastmilk and formula if my breastmilk is not enough. Now, we feed him more frequently and hopefully his reflux reduce by itself, cause GER often resolves by itself.

From Old Days

flower misses the sunshine to give sparkling in morningdew
and i miss you to give my heart that funny tickle

there was a day
the day when i believed in you
believed in everything that we had back then
will long last till the end of time
i don't know was it you or me
or both of us?
it wasn't the place or time
or differences between us
cause we knew it was there long before
it's just your heart or my heart
having some changes and will never be the same

aku ingin menjadi waktu
tak pernah berhenti tak pernah ragu
tak pernah takut tak pernah khawatir
aku ingin menjadi waktu
sesuatu yang pasti tak pernah ingkar janji
jika aku boleh memilih
ijinkan aku menjadi waktu

Rafan with New Look

From the movie "The Mirror Has Two Faces

We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive, where every sense is heightened, and every emotion is magnified. Our everyday reality is shattered and we are flung into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, or an afternoon, but that doesn't diminish its value, because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

Ex Boyfriend

Life is so colorful, sometimes you feel sad sometimes happiness come around.
A couple days ago my friends and I had a conversation about ex boyfriend. What a coincidence, I just came to my ex boyfriend wedding the other night. One of my friends said that she almost cried when she attended her boyfriend wedding, but after that she can move on her love life after 3 years hoping that he and she will be back together again.
What about me? Well, since me and my ex boyfriend broke up years ago, I lost all those feeling, when I decided to say enough is enough its mean the end of love relationship and back to friendship. Are we still friend? Honestly at the beginning the answer is no, but as the time flies everything back to where its began, friend.
But there was a funny thing. We both think that we are more beautiful than our ex boyfriend's girl we said "gue lebih cakep tuh" as if we said it's your loss to loose me.

Rafan & Family

Dream Car

Eventhough we still in a lot of debt, hopefully we manage to buy this beautiful car sometimes next year. My hubby really looking foward to buy it.
Last saturday we went to suzuki showroom to take a closer look into this mini mpv. A affable sales welcome us and we had a little chit chat, and my hubby fall more deeply with swift. But i still wonder, does the baggage can carry rafan's stroller ? hmmmm we have to try it before we buy it.
Well, actually he wants to buy grand vitara but the price is too expensive for us and we have to sell scooby, so it better to have scooby and swift rather than one big giant grand vitara.
Hope everything going well...........

For U

A square has 4 end
A triangle has 3 end
A line has 2 end
Life has 1 end
But my love and tenderness for you
Will have no end

Rafan, 2 Months Old

My Beautiful Baby

On 27th July, i gave birth to a beautiful baby after 18 hours struggling in pain. During the labour process my beloved husband always stay by my side to give me strength and courage, many kisses for my husband.
Weight 2.9 kg and 48 cm long, we named him Rafan Ahmad Thariq.
Well, let's the picture speak for it's self.

My Latest Pictures

weight : 60 kg
baby's weight : 3.1 kg
week : 38-39

Picture of Me

This is my picture, just taken yesterday morning after taking bath in the morning, still with daster . Am i look fat? cause i already gain weight about 12 kg, i used to be 44 kg now i'm 56 kg and i think it will add more until my baby birth .

Pictures of Dudut

Tam tam tam tra la la ....................
Finally, all of you will see the picture of dudut cat i told you earlier. And here you go.........

Finally, My New Digital Camera

Yippie.......
finally we bought a digital camera . Yup, it's Canon S3 IS, my husband chose this one after a lot of consideration eventhough i prefer Canon Ixus 800 IS. It's more simple and smaller eventhough it's not as sophiticated as S3 IS.

The camera was a birthday present for my husband from me, well his birthday is actually on april but we can afford to buy the camera this month.

The black one is Canon S3 IS, the one that we bought and the white one is Canon Ixus 800 IS.

by the way, we have a dudut cat picture, we took it last saturday, unfortunetly i'm too lazy to copy the file from my computer at home. Maybe next time i will post the picture of dudut cat and i'm sure you will find him so 'asem' .

Don't Say You Love Me

I've seen this place a thousand times
I've felt this all before
And every time you call
I've waited there as though you might not call at all

I know this face I'm wearing now
I've seen this in my eyes
And though it feels so great, I'm still afraid
That you'll be leaving anytime

We've done this once and then you closed the door
Don't let me fall again for nothing more
Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away

I've caught myself smiling alone
Just thinking of your voice
And dreaming of your touch, is all too much
You know I don't have any choice
Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away
Yeah Yeah Yeah

We've done this once and then you closed the door
Don't let me fall again for nothing more
Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real or take it all away

mourn weekend

what a weekend.........
full of sad story
2 lifes decided to leave this world
others have some accident to face
and me, just left alone

everything happened
to make us realize that life is not easy nor hard
it just right for us to live it

but just like i said
no matter what happened
life goes on

What Goddess Are You?

You Are Aphrodite!

A total shining star with a ton of admirers And no wonder: you live life to the fullest! When things get bad, you can easily take off to a happier place But occasionally, you need to deal with problems head on

What Goddess Are You?

even you take a thousand of quiz like this, you won't help you to know yourself better

Smile

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through
For you...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile
That's the timeYou must keep on trying
Smile,
What's the use of crying?
You'll find that life
Is still worth-while
If you just smile

I posted this song on December 2004
And once again this song just reflecting thing that i should do
Smile, no matter what happened
Hopefully it can bring a sunshine through my heart

Swim swim swim

I want to swim, but due to my big belly (pssttt someone inside) i can't wear my old swimsuit. it's only work until my 4th month, i think.
i think the last time i swim, i was with my husband in our honeymoon . Yup, we have our honeymoon after i got pregnant. Well, we kind of busy people .

And now eventhough i really want to swim (articel said swimming is the best sports that you can do during your pregnancy) i can't, because i don't want to buy new swimsuit only to wear it a few times. Hmmm some people may call me stingy be i call my self thrifty .

Not much

Nothing much to say right now. Been busy cause friday last week i didn't go to the office, my husband was sick. He's not fully recover right now, but much better than last week. So i have few pending jobs need to be done to day.

Hopefully i have some free time this afternoon to update my blog.

Obat Ketek

Some of you may not understand what obat ketek means, it means deodorant. Everyday i use deodorant before going to work or anywhere else, it gives you more confident because your underarms will not be sweat eventhough if it's sweat it won't smelly.

Eventhough it's something that i do everyday, still sometime i forgot. Just like today. when i'm on my way to the office with my husband, i just scream, "oh my god i forgot something, i forgot to use my deodorant" . it keeps bugging me for sometimes, and suddenly i just got an idea.

I use my BodyShop face powder for my underarms . And it works well. But i'm not considering using BodyShop face powder for my deodorant, it's to expensive for obat ketek .

Oh oh Peg Perego

Right now i'm preparing all stuff that my baby going to need, one of them is stroller.
After asking to friends and realtives, me and my husband found out that Peg perego and Maclaren will be the best choise if we want to buy a stroller. But we also have to consider the price, because in indonesia the price will be expensive.

My sister offer me to buy maclaren at singapore but of course i have to pay her later (is she a stingy person, isn't she? hi hi hi hi hi, no she's not, just kidding ). Maclaren is cheaper in singapore than in indonesia and she will bring it when she's visiting me in august.
But we still have to think about it because it will cost us 1,5 million - 2 millin Rupiah. Well, currently we don't too much money to spend.

And last sunday, we finally bought peg perego!!! Quite expensive but nice, i think my husband fall in love with the stroller, eventhough we have another choice at that time. Elle stroller, it also nice and with with cheaper price than peg perego we can get the stroller and also car seat .

But i think my baby destiny is get peg perego as his/her stoller, well lucky you my baby. You have parents that love you very much But the bad news is we lost the handle bar, we're so sorry my baby

My Baby Name

Right now I'm six month pregnant and expecting my baby on the end of July. After a half day search in the internet (because i don't have time consuming things to do for my work), i finally found a name for my baby.
The doctor said that my baby is a boy, but for precaution i prepare name for girl and boy.

If it is a boy the name will be : Daud Malik Pramantya
Daud : One of Allah Messenger
Malik : King
Pramantya : shining

Another idea come up. How about : Rafan Malik Pramantya
Rafan : Beautiful, graceful

If it is a girl the name will be : Dania Malika Pradipta
Dania : Beautiful
Malika : Queen
Pradipta : Light

A new idea from my hubby is : Dania Hadya Malika
Hadya : a leader/ guide to righteouness

My sister propose a name Falisha, meaning happiness
Well, good input, i will think about it

So what do you think?
Any comment?

Changes

Well, today i make some changes to my blog.
I put some picture and also shoutbox, just try to make it a little bit interesting. Eventhough i have to admit that i'm not a creative person and very lack of new idea, poor me .
My sister has more idea and creativity than me, in this case i have to admit it. And now i just wondering what should i do next with my blog?

Dudut Cat

In my neighborhood there is a dudut cat. This dudut cat is a kembang asem cat. Many of you may not understand the word dudut cat or kembang asem cat because i think this term only exist in my family .

Dudut cat is not a cute cat like hello kitty but a fat and "hero" cat . A dudut cat usually is a boy, and seems like he owns a teritorial. Some kind cat godfather i think.

Unfortunatly i don't have a picture of this dudut cat, well it's because i don't have a digital camera. How poor i am.
Does anyone has a generous heart to buy me a digital camera?

I'am Back

Wow, it's been a long time since my last post. I thought my account became incative, so i just ignore it.
But today i found out that i can still access my blog, so here i am, writing again. My sister already has her own blog and she like to dress up her blog, not like me.
I just don't have time and creativity to do a lot of thing with my blog. But may be i try when i'm in the mood.
Last year so many things happened but i won't tell about it right now, because it's MONDAY, i have a lot of work to be done.
7.31 AM in monday morning, it's time to get back to work.

waiting.....

last tuesday i resigned from my office. i didn't know exactly what i felt back then, i didn't feel sad nor happy, just plain i guess.
a lot of things will be waiting for me in next coming weeks. my new job on february 21, my wedding the next 2 weeks, my sister will come on february 19 and a lot of preparation to do before my wedding party.
i just hope everything will be ok, i always pray for that.
i plan to go to yogya this saturday and i will back on monday night. just try to change the atmosfer and take a little vacation before my hectic life comes ahead.
i thought i have a lot of things to say but suddenly i lost my mood :(
11.25 pm now, time to go sleep, good nite, have a nice dream

Friends

i was reading one of my friend friendster and then i found out that she has so many friends and some of them are her best friends.
do i have many friends? yes i do have many friends
but how many best friends do you have? well i can't answer to that question
during my elementary school i have 2 best friends, mala and fira, but unfortunetly i don't know where they are now. we just lost contact, i try to find them on the internet but they seem not connected to the cyber world.
in senior high school, i used to think that i have best friends, but i don't know what they think about me. they like to do something and not involve me in.
in college all my friends who are i consider my best friends, never reply my mail or my sms.
in office, i do have some best friends, but sometimes i feel that we are best friends when we're in the office, on weekend or vacation, we hardly contact each other, may be because we just busy with our personal life.
well maybe the problem just me, or them? i don't know
some of my old friends still have contact with me, email or sms but i think they just friends, not best friends.
my boyfriend, who is going to be my husband in the next 2 month is my best friends, and also my sister.
maybe i just haven't meet my truly friends, but the clock still ticking so why worry.
the time will justify everything, and sometimes all you can do is just wait and see.